Readers - PT 1

[Modaisycreech]

Just toying with a quick start to something that I might explore - Thoughts? Comments? - read the start below

As I pull into a parking space that appears to offer substantial shade I glance at the information displayed in my rear view mirror. The time is listed as 8:23AM. I am 7 minutes early to my scheduled appointment. My stomach tightens just a little at the thought of the task ahead of me. That little voice inside of my head literally asks “why does your stomach still tighten at the beginning of meetings like this?” In the last 4 year years, I have had well over a hundred meetings exactly like this one. There have been times when I had a partner with me so I did not have to focus on this emotional surge causing my stomach to do back flips. But not this time. No, this time I am solo!

Another glance at the tell all display and I notice that it is already 83 degrees outside. There is a reason that my hometown is called Hotlanta and it has nothing to do with the girls that frequent the Buckhead area on the weekends. Well, it could have started from the Virginia Highlands crowd but I am quite sure it has to with the city’s heat index. Or is it the humidity? After all, a dry heat is supposed to feel better, right? At least that is what my Arizona friends tell me.

I have a few minutes to kill before I am supposed to check in so I might as well do a quick bag check. I confirm that all of my supplies, tools, and the necessary change of clothes are packed. Yes, I brought a change of socks this time. Sometimes I forget the socks. They are not as important as the other items but there are times when they are so very needed! I hope that they will not be used for the meeting today but considering the weather conditions I am glad they are there.

[Modaisycreech]

As I place the socks back into their storage compartment my hand brushes over the grip of my weapon, affectionately called “Sting”. Considering the fact that I have about 5 more minutes to waste I decide to give Sting the once over. Damn! It has been about 4 months since I had Sting calibrated. Is that why my last meeting was not as successful as I wanted it to be? I remember struggling with my efforts to deliver the final blow. Stomach turns. Am I ready for this today? By the standards of many people this should be my biggest challenge yet. I fully expect to have to work harder than I ever have in this meeting and I am ticked at myself for not checking on Sting prior to this moment. Well, take a deep breath and try to forget about that. I know from the past that if I carry any doubts into this process it will not be successful. Mind over matter! Deep inhale …. Deep exhale!

Time! I have to check in now. Meetings such as these require courtesy and a timely arrival is expected. I open my car door and am immediately struck by a wave a heat that my air conditioner was concealing. Never mind that now, I already knew that it was going to be hot. I didn’t count on the stickiness in the air since it was just 8:29AM. I feel a slight trickle of sweat running down my forehead. Am I that nervous already? I glace over to the prearranged meeting location and notice my foe sitting on the bench. He is looking over at me as well. Does he notice that I am sweating? Can he tell that I am nervous? I need to show strength and confidence so that he does gain a mental edge over me. Meetings such as this require mental strength. If I have any hope of conquering my prey I am going to have to show strength, poise, and confidence and that has to start right now!

[Mark B.]

K-Swiss?

[irie feeling]

Huh, writing a book?

[Hockeyfan]

You want to kill yourself? You have anxiety that is undiagnosed? You're just not that good at what you do?

Do tell.

[CrazyCoyote82]

Yes it sounds like he wants to start a book.

In my opinion its a good start. I had a teacher tell me once to NOT write it in order. You know how you want it to start, you have the basics of what you want to happen and you have somewhat of a idea of the end. Write those down then fill in the blanks.

Wither that helps or not I have no idea. I know it helped me. if seems as you may be trying to hard on the details. Yet not quite as imaginative in others "Deep inhale, Deep exhale" Maybe try a few other words in there besides deep??

I am NO editor, nor a writer. However this is my opinion. It was entertaining however slightly tough to read. If that makes sense at all.
My apologies if this upsets you. I know that I personally don't take criticism well at all.